Fear, and Your will be done.

I have been going back and forth with God for quite some time now about this whole "writing" dream I have. I have been writing to just Him for so long now that possibly involving other people, writing to and for others to read is pretty, let's just say... terrifying.

In fact, the entire process of entertaining the idea of, creating, and clicking to publish this blog has made me recognize and wrestle with some fears. Fears that I never expected to intertwined with this dream of mine.

Even after taking tangible steps forward and now being here, I still have zero idea where this path I started down is taking me.

The only thing I do know is this:

IF God is indeed asking me to take some steps, I have to.

I am at the point in my life where I am not really a fan of following my own way, my own delusional dreams, my own plans, and just asking God to come along for the ride... I've had to repeatedly learn that the hard way and deal with the damage that lifestyle has brought. God has humbled me time and time again, and by His grace my prayers have changed through the years to where they are now:

Your will be done.

Period. End of sentence. I stop trying to find other words. I now just pray that because that is ultimately all I need to say.

I am asking God to show me what He wants from me, to establish His plans for me, to get me on board, to reveal it, to refine it, and to just do what He wants, how He wants, and for me to get out of the way.

Praying this prayer, making the desire of your heart HIS will and way, seeking it through seeking Him in His word... it's the ONLY thing that cuts through that fear.

God is big, He is powerful, and if He doesn't want me to write, I guarantee this post, this blog, this journey will end quickly. That's comforting. I just have to focus on the things that simple and yet are massive enough to require daily committments to:

SUBMIT

LISTEN

OBEY

WAIT

and then begin the process again.

This first one is for you, God. Do with it what you want. Your will be done.

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